Start The Day off with a Coffee!

Back to My place of Schooling

It's strange. I don't feel the same support. I don't feel the same excitement, but I need to take the essence of home and make it radiate where ever I am.

Home for me ended up being a blessing. I caught up with some good friends and some old friends that I felt as if I was drifting away from them. And I was okay with that. Then there were the friends that made me shine, made me laugh and over all gave me my spirit back and reminded me of who I am.

I am a woman who enjoys playing.

Also, as my adcomventury goes on. I think a moment of importance is when I walked out into snow flake lane and there were so many people standing there, my overwhelmed bug hit but then I looked at my dance partner and just began to dance and forget the people surrounding us.

Onto the fun.

Before I left for California, I saw Brandon Ivie's Cinderella in Seattle and this may sound corny but it made me realize I am no longer afraid of love. I am so excited for what life holds and this fear of who I am needs to vanish.

I think fear is something you need to look at head on. AND ROCK THE WORLD!

Have a good day! We're one step closer to the weekend... which I already need.

Sunday, the week starter ICK

Hello there, I skipped my first day. I felt bad.

So you know how they say that there is the freshman 15, you gain wait in the beginning of college. I didn't get that. I got the Senior Thanksgiving 10. I am at a point in my life that I love food, but going back to washington (where I am cold) and you put so much good food in front of me what am I supposed to do? I eat, and i stupidly left my running shoes at college so I couldn't work out, but I feel pudgy, don't worry I will be super fine. Working out will be fitting into my schedule from now on, even if I am busy. :)

Hope all is well!

Another Poem

[When It comes to Love its You]

· Written By: Sarah Eisenberg

They say someday he will come

but till then I am numb

for you sing me beautiful songs

and could do no wrongs

for I wish I could say this too

that ten minutes ago I saw you

Well my dear prince you know

that I will call you rain or snow

for I want us both to be

so, so far from being lonely

and to be a princess to you

would be the very least I could do

For I will always woo

To be with you too.

When I wish upon a star

Know I wish you weren't so far.

You are an idea with a sweet tone

and right now I am alone

For someday you will fill me with glee

and I will wish you were near me

For you're as cute as a cherry

And FYI I don’t drink dairy .

You make the world go round

At least that is what I have found.

Gosh you know that I love thee

With all me heart and soulee

The day they call Black Friday!

I did a puzzle.

Wow.

People, they ask for guidance but does anyone ever actually listen? No. They go with their gut and that is the right thing to do but if you ask questions and you stop listening people may stop wanting to listen.

Sorry. I needed to rant.

Okay.

I like to hang out with my cousins and play cards, I like to watch movies and television shows, I like to read, I like to cook and I like to eat good food.

How many times a day do we think about what we actually like to do? and how we can make OURSELVES happy? I promise I am not a selfish people. yes I am becoming MORE selfish, but that's saying a lot. It's been a day of book buying and hair cutting and food (it's still thanksgiving break)

Cutting my hair is very nice it's like therapy, you feel great and new and confident. I got bangs! YAY to new things. AND I got a Carol Burnett, I want to be the next Carol Burnett, and have a show that's different then SNL and works with the audience and is comedic like her.

YAY to new beginnings!

I hope everyone holiday shopping went Splendidly!

More to come.

(Sorry today was a little hectic I almost didn't write anything.)

-This to shall Pass-

The Day of Giving Thanks!

What a day. It's filled with cooking, food, wine, traditions and best of all family.

I keep realizing how lucky I am, a day of giving thanks is what makes me realize how awesome life is? I guess I will take it.

To Continue my Adventure Comedy or as my cousin and I would say, Adcomedventury, today I woke up, read the newspaper, supported my family who was doing the crossword, ate a bagel and cream cheese AND I did drink some coffee. Then the day really began with some cards, I beat my cousin in cribbage! I like to win! Then we went on an adventure to a coffee place and I just was able to enjoy the scenery of Portland, it's so much better then the cali trees. We got back and began a puzzle my mom said that when we finished the edges we could have a tequila shot. Only my mom would jokingly make a puzzle into some sort of drinking game. Then my cousins and I played five hundred ( my favorite card game) and we lost. I got sad, because my competitive side was BLAZING.

Anyway, this is a day for everyone to realize what they are thankful for. And for me that's my family. A wise woman told me today that we change every ten years, I think I am afraid of change, but I am going to be okay with it right now. I may not have the closest friends in my life and I may for the first time ever not really want a guy in my life, BUT I am happy and I am alive and I am figuring me out!!

LET THE GAMES BEGIN! I guarantee my mom will want to do more tequila shots if not shots of whipped cream (meaning posing with whipped cream covering our bodies..... WHAT????)

LOVE IT! pictures to come.

Home is where the HEART is?

People say home is where the heart is, what does that mean? Love, Family, Dreams, Friends there’s so many places where my heart goes, but where is my home? I have lived in Boston, Palo Alto, Bellevue, and now Orange, but where next? Where is home? I traveled to Washington for thanksgiving and we are driving to Portland. It’s interesting I always felt like Washington was my home and I think one day it will be my home, but at this moment it definitely doesn’t feel like home. It feels as though it’s filled with the past. My heart is in the theatre, so it seems as though the stage is my home that is one of my homes. My family is my home, so even if I am traveling with them does that mean I am at home? I think it might. But recently I feel like home is in me, in my mind and body with where I am and what I am doing.

So to continue my adventure comedy, I think it’s the people in my life who give me long lasting advice. One of my friends once told me that, “it’s important to think with your heart and not your mind.” He meant it. If we are so stuck in our thoughts we lose sight of what our hearts want, and a big part of this has to do with where are we going in our twenties, so I come back to HOME IS WHERE THE HEART IS. Again I guess I m just realizing we need to live life with out hearts and we will be home.

There’s time, lot’s of time. I will figure it out. Onto the adventure. With my Heart and not my mind.

"Well there's a good beginning, if you go on that way lord knows what will happen."

-Servant of Two Masters

Good Music!

BEST MIX EVER:

(SONG) (ARTIST) (CD)

• Road To Nowhere-Best Of Talking Heads Alternative
• Midnight City-Hurry Up, We're Dreaming
• No Reason At All-Thirteen Stories Down(The Songs of Jonathan Reid Gealt)
• You Make My Dreams -Hall & Oates
• September of '92-Thirteen Stories Down
• Release Me-Agnes
• Quiet-Thirteen Stories Down
• Colors of the Wind-Disney's Greatest Volume
• Who You Are- Jessie J
• Ever Ever After-Enchanted
• North By Northwest-Blue Scholars
• Stay / I'll Never Go-Thirteen Stories Down
• Gives You Hell-Glee Cast
• Stand Up-Who You Are
• Love The Way You Lie-Rihanna ft. Eminem
• Go the Distance-Disney's Greatest Volume
• Lessons Learned-Thirteen Stories Down
• Strangers Like Me-Disney's Greatest, Vol. 1
• If I Didn't Care-Miss Pettigrew Lives for a Day (Original Motion Picture Soundtrack) S
• Love Story-Taylor Swift
• Hero-Regina Spektor

a poem of images of the past

A Poem Of Love Lost

Muscular full of Strength

Observer of the world

Stuck in the thoughts

Exercising, Food,

An Agenda Where I don’t fit

Similar to my mom

Lonely but a Confidant?

LLCOOLJ the stuffed animal

Mind crazed

No heart or humor

A lot of sadness

But

No open heart.

I am looking for an open heart

Open heart take your time. :)

Starting at the Beginning

I started a tumblr recently, which is worth checking out, but I realized it wasn't making me write as much as I wanted. So here I am. Writing. But I don't know what to write. I guess this will be a free writing exercise.

I am a Senior in college, I study theatre, I like to smile.

It's interesting recently I have seen and realized that life is a journey

and I want mine to be an adventure comedy. So let's begin.

This summer my supposed "love of my life" dumped me. He didn't want to get serious and grow together, he wanted to grow apart. Now he has this new lady who is into him, he looks happy. I am pleased for him. Me, I am figuring out me on my own so the next love that comes around gets a full person who is independent and strong. I think women have a really hard time not giving all of themselves for men, while guys in their twenties have so much more growing up to do.

It's scary to go back to when I was with him and how many of my dreams I was willing to put on hold and how I would have just followed him and make things work... then I thought his dreams were my dreams... I see my friends falling in similar tracks and/or also being young...BUT WE ARE YOUNG.

Why do we get stuck in settling down when we don't even know what our future holds. IF we are in relationships we need to appreciate them, grow with them, have fun, STOP PLANNING at the age of 21!!

Sorry, overload. It makes me think that it's from when women needed men more, we still have that need to be protected, I do, I admit it, but I also want a guy to sometimes want me to protect them. Find that equality and that love to make me so happy for the rest of my life. That I feel like this man is the person who I can just hang out with and I feel as though I am alone.

I just like to be. Be in the moment. Be in one place at a time. Breathe. Smile. And with the spirit of Thanksgiving, remember what I am thankful for.

Keep enjoying life. Life doesn't get better we just get stronger. Now how is this a comedy adventure? Who knows-I promise to keep you updated, it will become a comedy adventure if I want it to.